THE SILENT SCREAM.........

I grew up in a wealthy upstate, the adored daughter of two hardworking professionals......... According to my family, I was a very cute little charming girl since my childhood.. I was the victim of molestation at the age of 5 by a trusted family member,but pretend to be perfect on the outside to hide that I was miserable inside. It took me 10 years to say NOOOO.........

As soon as he closed the door my heart just stopped breathing...!!!!!

I recalled everything that how my childhood trauma felt like an old movie, each scene I saw many years ago. I can still remember each scene, but was far removed from the emotions. Never told anyone, Never sought help, Just buried it inside , the deep inside with a silent scream!!!

My parents used to be busy in office with no idea of what their 5 years old was undergoing at home. They had their reasons for being free of worry. We lived in a joint family, so I was never alone. There were grandparents, cousins uncles and aunt at home with me. 

Demon and Monster....Demon and Monster.... all about the game, where all the cousins would hide and whoever found the hidden people would be free to do whatever they wished with them, and as a part of the game my  uncle molested  me  several times till the age of 15, and told me  not to tell anybody otherwise my mom will be died. I  am  so scared to loose my  mother that I buried it inside with always a silent scream inside me,  deep inside me. All I  felt was pain...the pain till now..

I have never discussed or revealed the abuse to anyone as I was sooo scared of loosing my mom,, have strong feelings of anger,  self hate, shame and, depression till I was an adult and I have a lot of trouble dealing with in workplace, family and other relationship.....

I have now moved on, and now remember the incident as a nightmare. I met him several times in several occasions since then. I haven't forgiven him and his company still makes me uncomfortable.

Sadly, I didn't tell my family and frankly I dont think it will make any differences.....

Should I??

Was I responsible for the incidents ???? Should I unfold my untold story now to my parents????

A true story of my very dearest close friend who shared her story so that others can get courage to speak up...............

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